I’m sure you may have noticed from photos of me that I am not on the thin side of life. I have been trying to lose weight for years and my weight is like a yo-yo. It has left me feeling dizzy and unhappy. I exercise and lose weight for a while and then it stops dropping. It is very frustrating but most of the time I think that I don’t put as much effort in as I should and that is what I have started working on. I have done some research and I’m getting a little more into it now.

The only thing that is different from all the other times that I tried to lose weight in the past is that I don’t have laser focus on losing weight but rather on being healthier. In the past year this has helped me to lose weight. In a year, I have lost 12kg’s. I have a lot more to go. I won’t scare you with the amount, but it’s a lot more! I have lost this weight slowly and that is also something different from previously years as well. Previously I would lose quickly but then it would come back quickly too…like a boomerang that won’t go away!

In the past, I allowed my weight to dictate to me and control what I allowed myself to do and how I felt about myself. I changed that when I started my YouTube channel in spite of my weight. I watched wonderful women in the industry that motivated me to look past my weight and look at who I am as a person. The one that motivated me the most was Louise Pentland and she was previously known as SprinkleofGlitter. I got to know about her through Zoe Sugg and she was a queen to me. She was confident, bubbly and full of life…she still is.

Even though I am on the path to losing weight and being healthier, I want to be like one of those women that motivate others to hold their heads high. Like me, they must straighten their crowns and face the world head on and declare ‘This is me!’. My song titled that came from me finding my inner queen. When I say that I want to motivate, it’s not from discussing the subject of weight, etc. on a regular basis, it’s just from living my best life and showing that my weight doesn’t have to stop me from doing what I love, having fun or being sexy.

I have to admit, I do still struggle to be comfortable and completely myself on camera but that is mostly because I still feel a little daft talking to myself (ha ha). I will get there though. I have heard from seasoned Youtubers that they suffered from the same ailment when they started and now they talk to the camera like it’s their best friend. Maybe that is the mentality that I should adopt. It’s my best friend or my husband…mmm, maybe I’ll try that.

Much like the rest of the world, I have been misbehaving during lockdown and have been too scared to weigh myself again but I have started exercising again. I also need to get myself back to being healthier and leaving the copious amounts of sugar behind me. I won’t cut sugar completely because your body does need it and sometimes you can treat yourself but let’s be real, during lockdown sugary treats became part of my staple diet. Crisps or chips as we call it here in South Africa also became the go to snack. It was like my blood became laced with Pop Shots, Caramel and Fizzers. Naughty Ondeane! Now I have to get myself off that train…not an easy task as I’m sure many of you know.

I decided that I will share updates here on my blog in my diary section every now and then. A way of keeping me accountable.

That’s it from me for now…

Have you been struggling with weight issues?

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